10 January 2026
Life has a way of throwing challenges our way, isn’t it? For me, living with thyroid and breast cancer has felt like an unpredictable journey filled with emotional highs, deep lows, and countless twists and turns.
From the day I received my diagnosis, my life has been a mix of hope and despair, uncertainty and pain. Recently, I underwent surgery on my bilateral chest, specifically in the axilla area, to address painful fascia resulting from excess tissue accompanied by formulation of fluid inside, left behind during my mastectomy, due to stage 2 breast cancer.
The diagnosis of fascia was a painful reminder of how complex this journey can be. I often found myself contemplating my situation, asking, “Why me?” But as I navigated through the pain and reflection, I also realized that asking “Maybe” could open doors to hope.
This surgery felt like both an end and a beginning a conclusion to one chapter of pain and the potential for a new chapter of healing. As I lay on the operating table, I couldn’t help but think about the “What If’s” that clouded my mind.
“What if I don’t recover as expected?”
“What if the pain doesn’t go away?”
“What if this is a constant battle I have to face?”
These questions can easily turn into burdens, pulling me down into more worries and fear. But as I reflect, I realize I can also use these “What If’s” to empower me. This belief reassures me that even amidst of the “What If’s,” I am not alone. God has a purpose for my struggles, and perhaps I am being shaped for something greater.
In contrast to the heaviness of “What If's,” the word “Maybe” opens doors to possibilities.
Maybe is more than a word to me, it’s a mindset.
Maybe shift my mindset from fear to faith
Maybe I’ll find the strength to heal I didn’t know I had.
Maybe this operation will bring the relief I’ve been longing for, or lead to a better quality of life. Maybe I’ll feel more like myself again.
Maybe signifies strength and the acceptance that life may not unfold as we expect, but there is still beauty in the journey.
Maybe every painful experience is a step closer to healing, wholeness and lead me to discover a deeper purpose.
Maybe you’re part of a bigger picture.
Maybe my experiences can inspire others facing their battles, offering a glimpse of hope in their uncertainty.
Through all of this, my faith in Jesus has been my anchor. I believe that God walks alongside me during this journey, providing me with the strength I need to face each day. I often reminded of my life verse Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
As I continue this journey, I choose to embrace both the “What If’s ” and the “Maybe’s.” I allow the “What If’s ” to guide my preparations for the future while letting “Maybe” inspire hope and faith.
So, to anyone out there grappling with their own “What If’s ,” I encourage you to find your “Maybe.” Let that word fuel your positivity and open your heart to possibilities. Remember, it’s okay to feel uncertainty, but it’s also essential to hold on to hope.
