I missed talking, the normal one without any difficulties or exerting effort just to say a word or a letter. I missed discipling people. I missed doing 121. I missed sharing the gospel to people. I missed singing to God. I missed worshiping God and leading worship in the church. I missed a lot of things…..
I lost my voice for a month already. To be honest i am pissed off on this situation. I cried, I got depressed, i had anxiety, I am disappointed already and many more. I really don’t know and understand what is happening on the inside and now my left nose is bleeding. I had a lot of sick leave and I’m sick and tired of this…To be honest I don’t like sick leave.. But my doctor told me to rest. So i need to obey…
I went to a lot of doctors already. I spend a lot of money just to check what is going on. A lot of medicines. Steroids. Nebulizer. Now with I. M. injections for 15 days. Hoping and praying that is will work.
Today is the start of our Mid-year Prayer and Fasting. Starting today ‘till 8 June 2021. I know I can’t do this on my own but i am in faith that God will do miracles to me.
God is my comfort especially this time. Yes i am afraid but I know HE is in control. I will lay it all to God. I am trusting God on this. I believe HE is my Miracle Worker and my Healer.