April 9, 2024
Hello, to all my dear followers and dear readers! Welcome to my blog, where I share my personal journey through the challenges I've faced over the past few years.
I had thyroid cancer in 2016 and breast cancer in 2017. I believe in my heart that I am cancer-free.
On July 6, 2021, I lost my voice for a month. And it’s frustrating and I experienced depression and anxiety.
On April 3, 2024, I started to loose my voice again. Being a nurse working in the Emergency Area, we are on the frontlines and prone to contacting the viruses of our patients. Talking is one of the tools we need to communicate to the patients and family.
On April 4, 2024, I went to the Emergency Room because I couldn't talk. I stayed at home and took all the prescribed medications, as well as used a nebulizer. I had a chance to rest until April 7.
Today, April 8, 2024, I still have a husky voice, productive cough, tightness of my chest and I lost my taste buds. I still want to go to my work place and so I worked morning shift. I took 6-in-1 rapid antigen test and it showed weak positive for COVID-19. Having this husky voice makes communication very difficult and frustrating. It's challenging to communicate because even a slight exertion causes pain in my throat.
After my shift, they advised me to take sick leave. Because during this time, we are busy in our area, and I would be a burden if I were to work without being able to communicate. Working in the Pediatric Emergency Department is really busy and it's a non-stop working shift and demands talking and communicating to the patients and family.
The doctor gave me another set of medications. It’s quite frustrating coz I need to drink a lot of medications again. This past few years medicine is one of my companion. 😂
To be honest, I don't like taking sick leave. As long as I can walk and move, I will go to work. That’s how dedicated I am to my work. Glory to God. However my doctor told me to rest, so I need to obey.
I have already lost my voice for 7 days. I have a tight chest due to coughing, lost my taste buds and I can't sleep at night. If I lie down, I cough a lot. I don't know the position that will alleviate my condition. I experience a lot of coughing at night. It’s frustrating….
I miss talking, the normal kind without any difficulties or effort required just to say a word. I miss discipling people, having one-on-one conversations. I miss sharing the gospel with people. I miss singing to God. I miss worshiping God and leading worship in the church. I miss a lot of things...
Amidst of this challenge, I believe God is my comfort, especially during this time. Yes, I am afraid, but I know He is in control. I will entrust everything to God. I am trusting God in this situation. I believe He is my Miracle Worker and my Healer.
I am Brave and a FIGHTER because JESUS is with me.
