I was diagnosed of thyroid cancer, 2016. I did bilateral thyroidectomy. Can i be happy even i heard that i have cancer? We all want to be happy. None of us wants to be sad. The ups and downs that we face in our personal lives are enough to keep us down. But i choose to be joyful because i know that God is faithful.

2017, I was diagnosed breast cancer stage 2A. I was operated bilateral mastectomy. Can I still be happy with this news? Cancer?? Again??? I cried, i ask God, is it true? Why me? I know it’s wrong to question God but i did. So what’s next? Chemotherapy? Oh no. I don’t like. It will not happen. I will never do that. I know the chemotherapy journey will be too hard and painful....but....

God is not only in control of my today, but also of my tomorrow. Instead of asking why..I asked what can I learn out of this experience? Sometimes my logical reasonings are not be able to connect the dots as to why it happened. But I trust in God's promise. There were times when everything in my surroundings are questionable. When I started my chemotherapy, it’s hard. It’s painful. I vomited a lot of times. I feel nauseated everytime. My taste buds became like a metal that I had to eat my food with vinegar. There were times that I can’t walk due to pain. I just want to stay in my bed. My ears became sensitive to noise. When I started to lose my hair, my fingernails became black, my kilay (eyebrow) disappear I cried a lot...it was a very tough season for me.

I realized that no matter how bad the situation may look, God is in complete control. He allows bad things to happen so that it builds me up to be the person God wants me to be. Note that He isn't a God that gloats on my sadness. No. When I grieve, He does too. He understands my pain. It is my response, my choice to exercise His joy that is freely given. So, if some days we feel we're running low of joy because of circumstances around us, LOOK unto JESUS.

Tap into the beautiful gift of His comfort and joy that He gives even when things around us are not so good. There is a purpose even on bad things that happened to us. He is working for our good at all times. Also, God would never allow something to happen in our life that we cannot handle. So, hold on there! Cause in the good and bad, He is God, who dearly loves us and has the best in store for us. Choose joy over unhappiness. Turn your ‘every day’ over to Jesus. You'll see the difference it makes. Jesus, has made us conquerors, in fact, more than conquerors. He gives us strength to overcome feelings of anxiety, depression, and our daily frustrations. His hope is enough to look at the brighter side of things. HE is AWESOME!

“When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭94:19‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“Blessed are the people to whom such blessings fall! Blessed are the people whose God is the Lord!”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭144:15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”Romans‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”James‬ ‭1:2-4‬ ‭ESV‬‬